I walk through life with little received, but what has been given to me by the hands of God. I gift so often: I gift kindness, warmth, advice… things I never receive. I gift wisdom and love, I pull people up with me to help pave their roads to success. I do these things that no one else has done for me. And I work like a dog; I slave late hours to my studies, I spend time listening to people rant about their problems (people who make it harder to love them when the love is merely conditional). I receive nothing. Not time, not energy.
How does one manage it all: the lack of any sentiment from those you expect to feel close to you, the lack of fulfillment from your efforts… to never receive, or never feel like it?
Perhaps that is my biggest flaw. I give tirelessly to things that don’t give back. Sometimes it leaves me miserable.
However, I recently read a quote that said something along the lines of “it’s our duty to share our positive character with others.” Essentially, our gifts from God aren’t to be used for pride. We must share our fruits. Though it’s tiring – to be the source of joy in a group of negativity, to be patient with people and projects that don’t consider you, to exercise self-control when you feel like attacking what hurts you – it’s necessary. It is a testament to your character.
Thus, shine brightly. When it feels like the world is toppling onto you, remember to lean on Christ. Don’t allow yourself to be abused; guard your heart. However, remember that not everyone is as kind, as knowledgeable, and as faithful as you. That doesn’t make you better than them. It creates a duty you must uphold: share your fruits.
Lastly, do not forget that God is a good God, and will provide for you. Speak to Him, and He will listen. There is nothing you can’t achieve with Him beside you.
Peace always, Nicole.
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